I hope you had the time of your life.

It seems fitting that I heard the song, "I hope you had the time of your life," on my drive home from the theater today.

I did have the time of my life. I followed these characters, and watched them grow up. This last movie ended the series of books and films. The finality of it all is very sad. I am sorry to see it end, but the movie totally did it justice. I feel like the whole Harry Potter thing was one big chapter of my life. I remember being hesitant at first. I thought a children's book couldn't live up to my expectations. I was so wrong. This really became part of my life. Yes I cried during the movie, but I also cried while reading the book. I am sorry to see you go Harry Potter. Hopefully I will find new characters to become attached to for the next 15 years.

Fun Stuff

This weekend I have had a visitor... the four legged kind. Jack. He belongs to my brother. He is such a love. He has been all snuggly and sweet. We have gone on walks and I have brushed him... a lot. He really likes it. It's really funny to listen to him walk around on my laminate floor. He sounds like he is tap dancing. He does slobber much more than I am used to. He's a good boy. He has definitely kept me company. Jay comes back to get him tomorrow at some time, and then I get to have my rescue dog from Dunedin Doggie Rescue, for 5 days. I am still trying to think of a name.

What do you think? So far I have Sasha, Lucy, LuLu, Sweetpea, Talula, and Sandy. Anyone have any ideas? I still don't know if I get her furrever or not.

On Friday I went to do some paint your own pottery at Art from the Heart Cafe in Dunedin. I have never done this before, but it was super fun. I made the coolest thing ever, but I can't show you what it is until Friday, so stay tuned. It's super cool, you won't want to miss it.

Tomorrow I am going (very early in the morning) to see Harry Potter. It's the last one. :( So sad, I have totally loved this series. I will give my review soon.

THE TRIP... I know that's what you're waiting for. We are going to do a sunset river cruise in Chicago, and a ghost tour, and in Memphis we are going to tour Sun Studios. Those are the only updates as of right now. Still waiting on suggestions. :)

You know you want to know all about my adventures! Here is the itinerary so far...

July 28th - pick up rental car, get Jen in Spring Hill, drive to Atlanta. In Atlanta, we will be meeting my super awesome friend from high school, Allison. I probably haven't seen her since 1995. From Atlanta we will drive straight through to Strongsville (Cleveland), OH to see our friends Stacey and Sean.

July 29th - arrive in Strongsville. Sleep. Party the night away with Stacey, Sean, and all the Ohio peeps! We will be bringing a special surprise ;)

July 30th - Rock and Roll Hall of Fame!!! Such a cool place. Maybe and Indians game.

July 31st - Jen and Sean leave for the race in Indianapolis. Stacey and I leave for Chicago. Jen and Sean, meet us in Chicago after the race.

August 1st - Spend the day in Chicago. Possibly Natural History Museum, Michigan Ave, shopping, food, taking tons of pictures. We are looking for suggestions, and Jen and I have never been there.

August 2nd - All day in Chicago again.

August 3rd - Leave Chicago for Memphis. Find dinner. Hit Beale Street to do some damage!!!

August 4th - Maybe Graceland, tour the city, get into trouble. Head home.

August 5th - Return rental car by noon. :( Vacation is now over.

If you have suggestions of what we should do, or places to stop while on the trip, let me know. I am so excited to do this. I totally need a vacation, and what better than an adventure?

Slobbering Issue

The doctors office called. I have to go back in 6 month to repeat some test because I got some weird results. Not next week, or next month or in three months, but six. Half a year! Not the normal weird results I usually get, something completely different. First of all, something I have been battling for three years has finally come back negative! WooHoo!!! I think that I am finally rid off all this shit. Well, fingers crossed anyway. The battle I have fought over the past few years might finally be coming to and end... for now. Damn this human experience and bodies that do not cooperate. Whatever, I am totally happy about the news I

Jack, my brothers dog, is here visiting until Sunday. He is a good boy, he loves me. He does have a slobbering issue. He flings slobber everywhere. It's ok, it's super funny when he does it, and I don't mind cleaning up after him. Once he leaves the rescue dog will be coming back for her next visit. I have left out her name on purpose because I am going to change it.

I signed up for a stupid class yesterday. It's only one day, so it's all good. At least I'll get a little $$ out of it. I think Friday I am going to go paint some pottery. I haven't done it before, so we shall see. Anyway, that is all for now. Off to make something for breakfast and then head to the gym.

Starting Anew

Yes, I have decided to Blog again. This time, it will be about anything and everything. Total randomness. You know you love it!

Today I discovered StumbleUpon... OK, so much fun. Such a time killer. I have also recently discovered Pinterest. Now that is a really fun site. I strongly suggest you go check them out and see what they are. I can't forget to mention Google+, the new face of social networking. Now, the dilemma is getting all of this shit to link together. :p

In other news, I have spent the last month mourning the death of my best friend (four-legged) partner in crime, Cosmo.

It has really broken me. He really was my best friend. I don't really have a best friend per se anymore, so this was really difficult.

I have so much love to give, and being all alone, just sucks. I think I have decided to adopt a rescue dog from Dunedin Doggie Rescue. She was saved from a kill shelter. She is the total opposite of Cosmo. I didn't think I was going to get another dog, but I am not doing so well by myself. I can't sleep, I feel lost, and everyday I cry. I am so torn because I feel awful about Cosmo and nothing can ever replace him. He was always there for me through the craziest six years of my life. Yea, he was six, it was complications from Pancreatitis. I really don't want some other dog, I just want my dog back. I have to be logical and know that will NOT happen, so I am doing what I think is OK, saving a beautiful animal from being killed.

OK enough of this for tonight. No more crying.

Metamorphosis!

On Tuesday I had Gorby removed. The problem with this is that no one told me I would have such severe bruising. This thing hurts like hell and it is like a 3rd degree burn on my face. I have to wear a bandanna to cover my head. Do you know what it's like trying to get vasaline out of hair? Seriously I have stuff slathered all over my face. This better go away soon. I feel like something like this will scar and leave marks, I can't figure out how it actually removed something. It's making me have anxiety.

I'm going to have to take medicine today because it seriously hurts like someone or something has kicked me in the head.

Tomorrow I am supposed to go out because a friend has returned (briefly) from the Navy, and everyone is getting together, but I look like a freak. Well worse than normal, like seriously in a bad way. There is no way I can compete with the pretty girls. Sigh.

Separately it's playoff season and both the Wings and the Bolts are in the running at the moment. I think that Tampa Bay is going to have a problem this weekend. It's their last opportunity to prove themselves against the Penguins. We'll see. Maybe this won't be their year, but maybe it will.

One last thing... LAST DAY BEFORE SPRING BREAK!!! OMG it can't come soon enough. I have really had enough of this year.

Stupid.

Why did/do I let you make me feel this way? Did I waste these last few years on a fair-weather friendship? You suck.

Realization

I ran into an old friend Friday night. This is a person I met when I was about 15 years old, which was right in the middle of what I am realizing was my one true love. Some old memories were brought up, and I have been thinking about how I became the completely insecure person I am today.

This stupid boy broke my heart. No, he shattered it. I have not had a "healthy" relationship since that time. My marriage was never even rooted in love. I don't know what it was, but it sure wasn't mutual.

I remember months after we broke up sitting with him in the dark as he told me that he was better and he wanted me back. I was crying and I almost half considered it. I said no, I couldn't do that, I couldn't go back to that. In the end he had just thrown me away for someone else. Someone who was white trash and had a stripper name. He crushed me. I'm broken.

I don't know what I have been looking for all these years since I was 16 years old, but I know I have always had to be in control. I hate that. I don't want to control things. I want love more than anything. I want to share life with someone. I don't want to be the 3rd wheel. I love my friends but I always feel like the odd man out. I want someone who wants to hug me and hold me, and be with me. I don't want to look anymore. Someone needs to show up in mt life. I am tired of having a broken heart. It's time to sew it back up. I'm old. I don't want to be alone, and I surely don't want to settle again.

It's been awhile...

I think I'm going to start blogging again. It will of course be different topics since I am not really traveling right now, but I am always on the adventure. :)

Looking for a few things...

1st - a cheap external hard drive. My computer is on it's last legs and I need to back up all of my shit.

2nd - old and broken watches that I can take apart. I am in a deconstruction phase. I am working on a project

3rd - game pieces. You know from board games and mini kids toys. Again... project


4th - cogs, sprockets, gears, washers, etc.

If anyone knows of any free or really really cheap sources for this stuff, please let me know. :) I have some lightbulbs in my brain, but not the funds to complete these projects.

I'll make you something in return if you can give me any of this. :)