The guys left for YellowMore yesterday, and of course that means I am left with Duker. He and Cosmo are insane together. They had me up 4 seperate times in the night to go out or run around the house. They have taken every toy out of the box and scattered them all over the house. It's like a toy mine field.
I received my first update from the road today... Greg said that the German Place was closed until July, so no Meterwerst in Minniapollis (I can't spell that) for them. He then told me that they were eating wings and on the way to the Twins v. Tigers game. I told him that his dog shit in my house this morning.
I got an invitation in the mail today for a Bar Mitzva for one of my students. It says Heather and guest. I am taking applications for possible dates. :)
I'm not really feeling it right now. Ya know, the whole dating thing. I have the hardest time meeting people. Especially meeting people that are worth my time. If in fact I do speak with someone, I convince them that they won't like me anyway. I don't know how to get over that nonsense. Maybe I should just go alone and maybe I will meet someone there. Ya... I'll keep dreaming.
Let's see... tomorrow I'm going ghetto shopping with Lynne, Friday I'm teaching Jess to crochet, Sat I'm going to Jo's birthday shin dig, I think I'm doing something for the 4th... well it won't be Mt. Rushmore, but it will have to do.
I'm kind of tired of hearing, well don't worry, you can go next year or those places will be there next year. Ya so... even if I went, the expereince wouldn't be the same. We planned this whole thing together and it is not going to get re-created for me. If they go somewhere, it won't be back there again. AND... as of right now all future trips are on hold and have a 90% chance of NOT happening because CJ has finally bought a house, not to mention the car he got a few weeks ago. Whatever.
I'm down 35ish lbs now, so that mean oh I don't know 100 more to go. I suppose I just feel stuck. Where are the men that will love fat nerdy girls?
That's all for now. Gonna go have a sugar free popsicle and try to not kill myself stepping on dog toys.
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
Thursday, June 17, 2010
Over it.
I'm so tired of having the same fight over and over again. I don't see why it is necessary. My hand was dealt with limitations, and I'm sorry that you just can't deal with that. Maybe it's time I really did become that hermit that I am moving so quickly towards anyway. I'd probably be better off without any personal ties to anyone anyway. That will save a lot of heartache, arguments and feelings of being ostracized, since there would be no one there or ostracize me in the first place. Good. Settled.
Tuesday, June 15, 2010
Today and stuff
Today I am off to finally get some groceries. Only a little because I have very little money until payday and I still have to go get the dye so my mom can cover my gray hair before I go to this conference. That should be about $12, and I need to go get vitamins and that should be about $7. Seriously, a person can not live off of diet coke and hard boiled eggs alone. LoL Yea, Old Mother Hubbard's Cupboard is pretty bare.
Then on to the dermotologist to see if this thing on my face is anything to be concerned about. I was thinking maybe there is something they can do about this giant red birtmark running down my forehead, but that's just wishful thinking. Anyway, specialist co-pay is 20 or 30 bucks.
And tonight, trivia with the guys. Seriously it's so hot outside, it's not enjoyable to sit out there anymore. I will order my usual, water. I know they want to go to Peggy's afterward because we don't have to work tomorrow, but I don't have money to get drinks at a bar. Oy... what has happened to me?
Tomorrow a visit to the lawyer. I have no idea what he is going to tell me, but I'm sure it can't be good.
Anyway, off to start my day. Maybe I'll get something creative done in my spare time. I really feel like making something.
Then on to the dermotologist to see if this thing on my face is anything to be concerned about. I was thinking maybe there is something they can do about this giant red birtmark running down my forehead, but that's just wishful thinking. Anyway, specialist co-pay is 20 or 30 bucks.
And tonight, trivia with the guys. Seriously it's so hot outside, it's not enjoyable to sit out there anymore. I will order my usual, water. I know they want to go to Peggy's afterward because we don't have to work tomorrow, but I don't have money to get drinks at a bar. Oy... what has happened to me?
Tomorrow a visit to the lawyer. I have no idea what he is going to tell me, but I'm sure it can't be good.
Anyway, off to start my day. Maybe I'll get something creative done in my spare time. I really feel like making something.
Sunday, June 13, 2010
So it's summer already ...
You're probably wondering what I am up to, or you couldn't give a shit. Either way this is the plan.
NOTHING! yeah, I'm not going anywhere. I'm broke, like the rest of the country. I almost had to walk away from my house this year. How can someone with a college degree and 8 years at the same job be so poor? really though everyone is feeling the crunch like this. Anyway, here's my grand plan...
Next weekend I have a conference in Sarasota for work. It should be "interesting". I'm not sure what to make of it all yet.
I have 3 or 4 more workshops I am taking in July because they pay.
I'll be on this crazy diet the whole summer and hopefully by the time I go back to work my clothes will fit again.
The boys are going on YellowMore without me, and continue to make me feel guilty because "It was my trip" They're going to these places because I wanted to. Ya know what? Everyday I feel like shit because of what has happened in my life. Every single day someone feels the need to rub something in my face, compare me to someone that has success in certain areas where I do not, or to not speak to me anymore for some crazy reason. It's really hard to hear it from you, my best friend. Honestly though, the stuff that he says really doesn't hurt as bad as all the other people passing judgment on me. Inside, he gets it, everyone else looks right through me as if I were a window, or a bump in the road that they can look right over.
OK, so also, I will be working on my art and hopefully getting a lot more up on my website www.thecraftyones.etsy.com
I'll be working on my house
I'll be sleeping.
Who knows, maybe something good will come my way this summer; maybe i'll see the damn sailboat already.
NOTHING! yeah, I'm not going anywhere. I'm broke, like the rest of the country. I almost had to walk away from my house this year. How can someone with a college degree and 8 years at the same job be so poor? really though everyone is feeling the crunch like this. Anyway, here's my grand plan...
Next weekend I have a conference in Sarasota for work. It should be "interesting". I'm not sure what to make of it all yet.
I have 3 or 4 more workshops I am taking in July because they pay.
I'll be on this crazy diet the whole summer and hopefully by the time I go back to work my clothes will fit again.
The boys are going on YellowMore without me, and continue to make me feel guilty because "It was my trip" They're going to these places because I wanted to. Ya know what? Everyday I feel like shit because of what has happened in my life. Every single day someone feels the need to rub something in my face, compare me to someone that has success in certain areas where I do not, or to not speak to me anymore for some crazy reason. It's really hard to hear it from you, my best friend. Honestly though, the stuff that he says really doesn't hurt as bad as all the other people passing judgment on me. Inside, he gets it, everyone else looks right through me as if I were a window, or a bump in the road that they can look right over.
OK, so also, I will be working on my art and hopefully getting a lot more up on my website www.thecraftyones.etsy.com
I'll be working on my house
I'll be sleeping.
Who knows, maybe something good will come my way this summer; maybe i'll see the damn sailboat already.
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